During my first year of law school, I soon realized something very important to my sanity. I was losing it. Quickly. The constant high level of stress was wearing me thin and I wasn’t sure if I could keep going at my current rate of success. After a small mental breakdown, I decided that I needed to change something. I needed a hobby.
When you’re constantly writing 25 page papers, reading hundreds of pages a week, and briefing dozens of cases, the last thing a sane person would do is force themselves to write an extra thousand words a week. Luckily, my sanity had all but worn out and I was ready to do the impossible.
When my friends found out what I was doing, most of them thought that I was crazy
Amongst all the stress and schoolwork, I added to my work by carving out two hours out of every week to start a new hobby. I started a blog. More specifically, I started a blog where I write 1000 word short stories based on stock photos every week. (A picture is worth a thousand words, after all.) When my friends found out what I was doing, most of them thought that I was crazy. How could I possibly want to write even more?! But, what I found out was that I rapidly regained my sanity.
Forcing myself to ditch all law school thoughts for just two hours a week worked marvels on my life. My school work improved, my ever-present smile returned to my face, and I had more fun than I had in months! The stress of 1L year faded as I sat down at my computer, combed through the internet for a stock image, and wrote a short story every week.
Searching, writing, building, and maintaining the blog ended up to be more work than I had originally imagined. But, that was a blessing in disguise. The more I worked on the blog, the more I got away from law school and avoided the excess stress that didn’t help me at all.
If there is anything that somebody could take away from this, I would tell any incoming law school 1L to do several things in their life:
1. Find yourself a hobby that uses all of your mental capacity
If you don’t have a hobby that fully occupies your brain and can let you escape the rest of the world, find one. It will work wonders for your mental health and not being stressed out about law school will get you miles ahead of your peers. For me, this hobby was writing fiction. When I sit down at the keyboard, I clear my head of any distractions and focus on the next word to type out in a new story. It almost feels like meditating.
2. Find yourself a hobby that you can talk about with others
Publishing my short stories to a blog helped me share my hobby with others. This gave me something to talk about with my friends every time I showed up at the law school. It finally allowed us to talk about something that wasn’t law related (an issue that popped up in my 1L year) and gave us all a healthy mental break. This was always incredibly relieving.
3. Find yourself a hobby that is just plain fun
Whenever I stare at the blank page on my laptop and think about all the stories I can start jotting down, I get a rush of endorphins that feels fantastic. That surge of energy feels great every time and working on a product that I can watch come to life is always an amazing feeling. This writer’s high is something that I look forward to every week and is always ton of fun.
4. Find yourself a hobby that you can stick to
The most important thing in finding a new hobby is finding something that you can consistently return to. Week after week I would come back to writing a new short story. Every time I came back, I felt even better about myself. I’ve always had a problem committing to things. Writing fiction that I shared with my friends kept me honest with continuing my new hobby. When I started law school, I watched myself neglect to take the time and do things that I previously enjoyed. Keeping myself dedicated to my newfound hobby made me feel better every week and helped keep my head clear and focused.
I highly suggest the addicting drug that is writing fiction!
Writing fiction was the hobby that satisfied the above criteria and was how I stayed sane in law school. It didn’t take much to completely change my way of life in the most stressful period of my life. Just two hours a week completely revamped everything. The knots of stress in my shoulders finally relaxed, my girlfriend noticed I was much more happier, and my school work dramatically improved. All in all, life is good! If there are any law students that are currently looking to find an outlet for their stress to keep from going insane, I highly suggest the addicting drug that is writing fiction!
The bellboy glided up to the unmarked black sedan and grabbed onto the back door’s handle. Pulling the door open, a cane exited the vehicle. A foot followed soon after. The man eased his way out of the car and reached into his pocket. He slipped the bellboy a bill with a smirk.
“Tell Harold that I’m here.” The man with the cane said with a demeanor that oozed confidence. The bellboy looked up at the man, clearly puzzled.
“Who…Who are…?” The boy started.
“Benjamin Blackburn, of course” The man replied without looking to the boy. He walked away from the car and into the main lobby of the hotel. Inside the automatic doors, he paused for a moment and admired the lobby. The crystal chandeliers twinkled light onto the marble that lined the walls and floors of the lobby.
“I’ve forgotten just how exquisite this place is” he said to himself as though he were talking to a long lost friend.
A concierge walked up to him.
“Mr. Blackburn?” She asked while raising an eyebrow towards Benjamin.
Benjamin smiled his smile that always seemed to be filled with slightly more cockiness than should be permitted by anybody.
“That would be me, dear.” Blackburn stated as he removed the hat from his head and slightly bowing. He continued to speak after placing the hat atop his head.
“Tell me, where is the nearest ballroom that’s empty?” He inquired while squinting at her.
She paused for a moment, glancing away as she thought. Benjamin’s gaze never faltered.
“It would be the main ballroom. The smaller ones are booked for the night.” She replied.
“Excellent. I’ll take it.” He dryly stated.
“Well, you’re going to have to pay…” the concierge started to inform Blackburn.
“That won’t be a problem. I’ll need it for the night.” Blackburn replied. His gaze moved past her as he marched down the hall towards the main ballroom.
As he made his way down the hall, a large man came through the main doors of the hotel and hustled to the side of Blackburn. Blackburn never shifted his eyes from the door to the ballroom but acknowledged the presence of his bodyguard with a slight nod.
“Text Malcolm. Tell him I’ll be in the main ballroom. And, of course, tell him to come alone.” Blackburn ordered his right hand man.
He marched up to the ballroom and clutched onto the handles of the heavy wooden doors. Pulling them open, he walked through as they gently closed behind him.
Inside the ballroom, the banquet tables hugged the walls, huddled from the main floor of the ballroom. The chairs were stacked at the far end of the room. Blackburn’s tattooed fingers flicked a switch on the wall beside the door. A single light snapped on in the room.
Blackburn made his way across the room and grabbed one of the chairs. He dragged it to the middle of the room, placing it under the light that was turned on. He brushed the fabric off with his hand before making sure the chair was pointed towards the doors that he passed through earlier.
He pulled the fabric of his jeans just above his knee as he sat down. His right knee ached as he lowered his body into the chair. Blackburn removed the hat from his head and placed it on his left knee. He slightly leaned forward in the chair and delicately balanced his ivory-handled cane in both hands. He glanced down at his watch. It was three till eight.
He let out a long sigh and thought about how long he waited for this moment. It took a lot to make it onto the FBI’s most wanted list. Most men did it for some kind of political cause or to support a radical religion. Terrorists were boring to Blackburn. Easily manipulated. The religious fanatics were simply too unreliable to deal with. Benjamin Blackburn started for something far different. His life of crime was born from love for a woman. The only woman that he would gladly give his life to spend one more night laying next to her in a cool bed with her warm body pressed against his. A woman that he would kill hundreds of men to simply share another glass of Romanée-Conti with. A woman that was taken from him twenty three years ago.
The doors to the ballroom opened up. Blackburn glanced down at his watch. It was now eight o’clock on the dot.
“Malcolm Sanders. I have waited so long to finally meet you in the flesh. You did come alone, correct?” Blackburn started.
The man at the far end of the hall never spoke a word. He simply stared at Blackburn. Blackburn pursed his lips at the silence. He shook his head ever so slightly.
“Come now. I don’t want this to be a one sided conversation.” Blackburn continued. A side door to the banquet hall opened up.
“Ah. I was wondering how long it would take for Harold to send this.” Blackburn stated as he watched a waiter come through the side door with a serving cart. The young man wheeled the cart across the ballroom floor to Blackburn’s chair. Blackburn hoisted himself up and fetched another bill from his pocket. He slid it into the waiter’s hand and patted him on the shoulder. As the waiter walked back out of the ballroom, Blackburn gestured to Malcolm to come over.
“Join me. I wanted to share a drink with you before we tend to business.” Blackburn stated “Don’t worry. It’s not poisoned.”
Blackburn sank the corkscrew into the top of the bottle.
“No. I’ll kill you after we share this drink.” Blackburn smirked. He gestured the bottle towards Malcolm.
“Tell me. Do you know what this is?” Blackburn waited for a response. He was greeted with silence. Blackburn licked his lips before speaking again.
“It’s the same wine I shared with my wife before you took her from me.”
Every morning started out the same. One of the roommates came out of his room at around 5, he sat in the living room and started his work for the day. Around 7, another roommate finally decided to roll out of bed. He didn’t immediately jump into his work, he had a routine to check off. It started with a shower. The last of the three roommates finally woke up from his groggy slumber and shuffled out of his room and into the kitchen. He grabbed the coffee from the cupboard above the fridge and dumped a scoop into the machine.
The machine whirred to life and started sputtering the boiling, black liquid. The aroma of the coffee quickly filled the apartment. The trio’s noses perked up. The smell was officially the start of their days. Their fuel was being pumped into the carafe and soon would be sipped into their bloodstreams.
The early riser looked up from his cup of joe as the others took nice long sips.
“Guys, I have an idea.”
The groggy roommate looked at the early riser with a blank stare. It was way too early in the morning for another idea from the early riser.
The roommate with the routine obliged the early riser’s invitation to start a conversation.
“Alright, I’ll bite. What’s the idea?” He said before taking another long draw from the coffee. He perked up as the liquid ventured down his throat and brought him to life. The early riser smiled.
“Well. You know how we all really like to drink our coffee?”
Nobody nodded. They all knew it was a rhetorical question. They didn’t just like the coffee, the coffee was their life. At least, it was the start of their lives every morning.
“Why don’t we start our own coffee plantation?” the early riser stated.
The groggy one let out a long sigh.
“Well, for starters, we don’t have the money to just do that…” He started.
“Yeah. I know that,” the early riser quickly responded. “But, I’m saying when make our money. Once we graduate from school and everything, why don’t we start our own coffee plantation. We know how much we need our coffee, so let’s start supplying it too!” His voice got louder and louder as he revealed more of his idea to the other members of the trio.
“Alright. But where would we start this new plantation?” The routine roommate inquired.
“I’ve been giving that some thought too…” the early riser started.
“I knew this wasn’t just a spur of the moment kind of thing…” the groggy one muttered under his breath.
The routine man raised his hand to quiet the groggy one. He was curious as to how much this idea was thought out. Sure, most of the early riser’s ideas were kinda far fetched. But, some of them really had some merit to them. This one in particular seemed like it could actually be kind of interesting.
“Yeah. I’ve been thinking about this a little bit more every morning and I’ve been really trying to grow this idea.” The early riser started to defend his project.
He looked over to the routine roommate to address his previous question.
“We grow it in China. When I went over there, I saw some great stuff. The country is ripe for this kind of thing! I can’t think of any coffee that is grown there. We could be an exclusive import for awhile. We’d be corning a part of the market and we’d be doing it pretty cheap too.” His smile grew wider as the other two roommates realized just how much he had actually thought this whole idea out.
The groggy roommate squinted while he thought about the idea more. He swallowed another wave of the black coffee. It burned in the center of his chest. To him, the burn meant that the coffee was working. He swore that he could feel his brain coming fully online with each sip of his coffee.
“I see what you’re saying… I think this could actually work…” The groggy roommate finally started to come around to the idea.
“I’m telling you, this idea is going to work. I’ve thought it out way too much. And with your help, we can fill in all the missing problems of the argument and perfect it all.” The early riser stated with extra enthusiasm in his voice.
The other members of the trio nodded in unison. Then took a sip from their mugs.
The three of them smiled as they realized that this idea could actually work. This time, they all took a sip of their coffees at the same time.
The early riser smiled as he thought back to that fateful morning from eight years ago. He couldn’t believe that his dream actually came true. Well, that’s not entirely true. A lot of blood, sweat, and tears went into this project. He always admitted that he couldn’t have done it without the help of his two former roommates. Between the three of them, the business grew in no time and within a few years, they were a worldwide phenomenon.
Just as he always did before, he got up at 5 o’clock in the morning. He opened the blinds of his living room and revealed at the sight that was in front of him. The sun shined down on the plantation of coffee plants. He walked over to the kitchen of his pristine house that overlooked the fields.
He reached into the cupboard above his fridge and pulled out a small tin canister. He twisted off the top and breathed in the fresh aroma that emanated from the now-open container. His nose perked up. He scooped out some of the freshly harvested coffee beans and popped them in his roaster. The scent now filled the entire house. He could feel his body waking up the more he smelled the coffee. Even after all these years, every morning started out the same.
Trevor ran for what felt like hours before finally coming to a stop. He looked around at his surroundings to figure out where he was. The whole trip felt like a blur to him. His heart rate kept at the same nervous throbbing pace as he realized where he was. It was the old abandoned apartment complex that was at least thirty miles outside of town. Paint chips drifted off the walls as the air disturbed them for the first time in years. Trevor shuffled his feet on the tile floor and kicked aside the chips of plaster, paint, and dust. He looked down at his watch.
That couldn’t be right. He flicked his watch to make sure all of the hands were moving properly. The second hand ticked on at it’s usual rate. Trevor reached into his backpack and pulled out his phone. The time synced up with what his watch was telling him. His heart rate still didn’t slow down. In fact, it now started to beat even faster because of the realization that was dawning on him. Trevor just ran at least thirty miles in about just under two and a half minutes.
He quickly shuffled outside and looked at the landscape. It’s exactly where he thought he was. But, there was no way that this was actually happening. There was no way that he could possibly run that fast. He did some quick mental mathematics and figured that he had to be running just about as fast as a speeding bullet. His eyes popped as the realization officially dawned on him. He actually did run that fast.
The next question was ‘How?’
It had to have been because of Fred and Tommy. They were the typical bullies at school. Trevor never thought that the bullies that were always shown in movies and TV shows could possibly exist in real life. Yet, Fred and Tommy always prowled the halls and would beat up unsuspecting freshman. Today was Trevor’s unlucky day.
Earlier, Trevor was walking down the hall between his algebra and english classes when he saw the duo round the corner and snicker as they saw Trevor all alone. They marched down the hall towards him and Trevor tried his best to not make eye contact or acknowledge the pair at all. He looked down at his watch and noted the time. As he kept walking towards the two, he could feel their presence looming without even looking up. Suddenly, one of them bumped into his shoulder hard.
Trevor was knocked off balance and stumbled backwards into the old, white cinderblock wall. Before he even got a chance to see which one of the two bumped into him, he felt a massive dull pain in his right side. He looked down and noticed a fist being pulled away from his abdomen. This was it. This was the day Trevor was finally going to get the crap kicked out of him.
Trevor closed his eyes and hoped that it wouldn’t be as bad if he didn’t fight back. He felt a hand clamp around his wrist so that he couldn’t run. Then, another blow was dealt. This time into his stomach. He felt all the air leave his chest. Trevor’s lungs burned as they struggled for air and he felt his diaphragm spasm as it tried to maintain order in his body. That was quickly defeated by yet another blow to his gut.
After another blow was delivered to his chest, Trevor knew that this was not going to end anytime soon. He had no chance to fight back against the attackers that towered over him. The only option left was simple: run.
Trevor twisted his arm to free it from Tommy’s grip. At first it felt impossible, then he felt his hand just barely begin to slip free from Tommy’s grasp. As he twisted more and more, his hand loosened its way out of the pin. Within seconds, he was free.
Trevor knew he didn’t have much time. He used all of his strength to barge past the two attackers. He felt the bruises that were already beginning to form ache as they crushed against the bodies of the bullies. Now, he ran. Trevor ran as fast as he possibly could. His legs burned as he made it down the hall. Before rounding the corner, he looked back and noticed Tommy and Fred standing still, frozen in the same stances that he left them in. Trevor thought they must have been stunned that he was getting away. But, Trevor didn’t care. He knew if he waited, they would just continue after him and dish out more of a beating.
So, he ran. He ran down the hall, past the corner, down the stairs to the first floor, through the main hall and out the front door of the school. Then, he was on the old winding road that led up to the school. Beyond that, everything was a blur. Trevor couldn’t remember the rest of the journey at all.
But, that didn’t matter. What mattered to Trevor right now was just how fast he ran that journey. He thought back to the stunned bullies. Maybe they weren’t stunned. Maybe he was just moving that fast. Trevor’s mouth went from his jaw hanging open to a wide grin. He looked down at his feet and chuckled. The only thing that made sense to explain all this was that he had to be a super human! This was his origin story! Now, only one thought occupied his mind.
Could he repeat it?
He walked out of the apartment and onto the street. He looked down the road that stretched for miles with no cars in sight. Trevor took a deep breath and started off at a slow jog.
He sped up more and more.
Soon, the trees were whizzing past him.
The lines on the street faded into a solid white blur and his smile grew wider and wider.
Gregory chewed into the nail of his index finger as he impatiently stared at the phone sitting in his lap. Any second now, an email would be coming in. He needed it five minutes ago. The conference was still continuing in front of him as he sat in the audience. In fifteen minutes, he wasn’t going to be in this chair anymore. He was the next presenter up on stage.
He finished chewing off the bit of nail and swiped down on his phone again. The circle spun a few times as the app refreshed. It disappeared and in it’s place a red “one” stared back at Greg.
With a twitchy finger, Greg tapped the new message. He read the first line and felt the blood drain from his face. His eyes darted around him to make sure that nobody else could see his phone.
“The system is down. It won’t be ready for the presentation” the email informed him.
Greg swiped past the message and clicked the phone number that sat in the auto-generated signature. As he raised the phone to his cheek, he left his seat. The guy next to him was too into the current presentation and Greg fumbled past his legs. Greg could feel the man’s condescending stare seer into the side of his head but chose not to acknowledge it. Instead he was focused on the sweat that was building on his brow. The phone started ringing.
Once outside of the conference hall, he made sure nobody was in his immediate vicinity. The ringing stopped.
“Greg…” The voice on the other end started.
“What the fuck do you mean it’s down?” Greg shouted into his phone. The vein in his temple flared from beneath his skin and throbbed.
“The system is down. We don’t know what happened. But, the system is…”
“You don’t know what happened? How could you not know what happened? You built the damn system. It’s your creation. How could you not know all the ins and outs of the god damn system?!” Greg spat out again. He watched a drop of spit fly across the hall.
“I… I don’t know…” The other side tried responding but his voice kept cracking.
“Then, how the hell are you going to fix this?” Greg said, lowering his voice. The question sounded more like a death threat.
“Well… we… we…we…” The other voice was struggling with his word’s again.
“We… we… we… WHAT?!” Greg screamed into his phone again. He listened to the man on the other side of the phone take a deep breath.
“We already tried rebooting a couple of the secondary systems but none of that is helping.” The man finally came around to saying.
“Then, why did you waste my time rebooting systems that WON’T HELP?” Greg could feel his heart pounding in his chest.
“Well, we were hoping that it would fix the problem” the engineer replied.
Greg pinched the bridge of his nose. He ground his teeth. He felt the knot in his neck get pulled tighter and tighter.
“It was a rhetorical qu… never mind.” Greg spoke through his clenched jaw “What are you doing to fix the problem now?”
“The only option we had left.” The man answered. Greg paused for two heartbeats, waiting for more.
“And, that is…?” Greg pried with a seething tone.
“We rebooted the system.”
“So, why are we having trouble?” Greg asked.
“The system is currently going through it’s self-diagnosis process and it needs another nineteen minutes.” The man answered while audibly cowering away from his phone.
Greg pulled the sleeve back on his dress shirt. His smart watch’s screen woke up. The digital second hand on the clock ticked forward. He only had eleven minutes left till the presentation. Greg let his sleeve back down and walked to the auditorium doors. He pried one open and peeked inside. The presentation before his was wrapping up. It was time to start making his way to the backstage prepping area. He did just that. He also returned to his phone.
“How long have we been working on this project?” Greg asked in a professor-like tone.
“A…about three years…” the other side responded, not quite sure where this was going.
“Three years. You’re right. And, do you know how long three years is in Silicon Valley?” Greg continued his line of questioning.
“It’s a God damn eternity.” Greg paused. “We have been building this app for three years. For three years, we’ve told the world that we were going to revolutionize the way we used computers. Not only did we tell them that we were going to revolutionize the world, we were following through with it. And now, you’re telling me that our system…our great and magnificent system… is down for our first presentation.”
“Yeah. That is what I’m saying.” The other side responded.
“Fix it. Now. I don’t care what the system is doing. When I get on stage, the system needs to be working. And if it isn’t, you can forget the idea of ever working again anywhere. Speed up the reboot process.” Greg ordered, his demeanor now cold and quiet.
“It’s impossible. I can’t do that. I simply can’t.” The engineer stated.
“Find a way.” Greg retorted.
“That…that would take an act of god…” The engineer desperately tried convincing his boss.
“Then, get off the phone with me and get Him on the line. I will not let your incompetence be the end of me. Fix it.” The last two acidic words hung in the air for a moment. Greg pulled the phone away from his face and mashed his thumb into the touchscreen, ending the call.
He made it backstage. A team of assistants charged up to him and began attaching a microphone to his lapel and strapping the transmitter onto his belt. Greg slid his phone into his front jeans pocket. He took a deep breath and walked on stage.